Thursday, January 25, 2007

skip

My heart does not skip a beat anymore when thoughts of him cross my mind.

It's not that I don't want this anymore. I do. But then I don't know why I am still here when he's been long gone. He said he is not making a decision, but then it's been months. If I am bad for him, why would he want to go one with this? If I am not, why punish me like this?

I don't know what to do. I don't know what to think. I just don't know.

But my heart does not skip a beat anymore when thoughts of him cross my mind.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Sahabat tersayang,
Percayalah...Allah sentiasa bersama orang yang tabah dan sabar. Allah tidak akan menduga hambaNya andai Dia tahu hambaNya tidak mampu menghadapi dugaanNya...bersyukur kerana Allah masih ingat pada kita maka diuji keimanan kita. Amin...

angin-angan said...

You have no idea what I really feel when it comes to you and him. I know I told you to be patient but when I said you expect me to tell you to break up with him? I actually wanted to say just that. I didn't because I just don't want you to be more upset. I said this before - I hate those who hurt my loved ones - including him for what he is doing to you. I didn't open my evil mouth since you really want this and I want to be supportive since I love you very much.

Instead of being the voice of the devil, I tried to be your support, so you won't regret it if you rush into things.

You know yourself best, at this point, when you feel the time is right, I hope you can move on peacefully without any regret.

Anillynnette said...

I know... I am not mad at you. I know what you wanted to say. I heard what I needed to hear you say. Not what I wanted to hear you say. That means more to me than anything in the world.