shitty

The last time I felt this shitty, I was hospitalized for seven days and was on the drip throughout.

And that was thirteen years ago.

Friday : Took a supposedly day-trip to KK to get the phone software upgraded. But spent the night anyway because we felt like it. And too tired to drive back. I'm getting old and my stamina is really low lately.

Saturday : Finished whatever we came to KK for and drove home. The cats...

Sunday morning : Already felt the sniffles. Then the coughing. After the wantan soup, everything went downhill.

Sunday night : My body was on fire but I felt cold. I wondered if I should get myself to the emergency room, but I was too sick to even get out of bed, let alone get dressed and drag myself into the car. I was aching all over. It felt like only death could end it.

Monday morning : Called in sick. My body felt like it went through a leather tanning machine. My head was throbbing. The fever still hadn't really left me. My stomach was grumbling. All I had for dinner was two very strong paracetamol tablets and some cough syrup the night before. I had some bread of course, but I couldn't swallow anything. Went to the clinic.

Monday evening : I wish I could say the fever didn't leave it's mark on me. I still ached all over. Thought about not coming to work again tomorrow, but it just felt wrong.

Tuesday morning : Went to work a little late on the account of nausea. No class. School was over really early on the account of shortage of teachers. There is the football cup thing at school going on now.

Tuesday evening : I still feel like shit. I'm really hungry. But I can't eat, cuz everything tastes like iron. Force-feeding myself. A few spoonfuls of rice porridge. I need to eat something to take the meds. I need to take the meds so I can stop feeling this shitty. I need to stop feeling this shitty so I can still give a damn about the shitty things the shitty kids are doing at school. (Not the goods ones, I love them. They always make me smile)

Ya Allah, I know, this is a small test. I have forgotten how good I have gotten it. I will get through this when You want me to. Please forgive me, for all my sins. Amin.

aren't we all just the same, give or take a few...?

Radio shows just LOVE pitting our genders against each other... today on Mixfm, they say WOMEN are more likely to overreact than MEN. Well, kita semua, lelaki, perempuan, SAMA je.

Kalau nak ikutkan, ada tak, perempuan yang tak dapat nafkah batin dari suami yang sanggup simbah suami dengan cuka getah? Yang I know, since women tak ada kudrat atau sampai hati nak cederakan suaminya sebab tak dapat nafkah batin or other emotional gratification from the husband, dia pergi cari kat orang lain.

Ni untuk perempuan dan lelaki tak kuat iman dan tak redha dengan ketentuan Ilahi la kan? I do not condone this act. Cuma I would like to remind everyone, men and women alike, who are deprived of their fundamental requirements are capable of finding other avenues to fulfill it, no matter if it is wrong or right.

Like Lorena Bobbit, whose name inspired the term 'to bobbit' to the lingo, retaliated because her husband was such a sex maniac with her and she was tired of his controlling nature. So she bit off his pee pee, got into her car and drove off with it, and threw the bit of pee pee she had in her mouth out the car window. Last time I read about the said pee pee, it was found near a trash can (nasib baik tak kena makan dek anjing!) was reattached to the said husband, who was in the American Army or something, both pee pee and sex maniac hubby went on to seek fame in the the fabulous world of pornography. Sama-sama happy and fulfilled, kan?

Back to the subject at hand, terpulang kepada individu untuk melihat kebenaran dalam kenyataan yang dinyatakan awal tadi, sama ada bersetuju atau tidak. But for me, based on my empirical study on both my mom and dad, and the news reports throughout history, men and women can be big drama queens in their very own way.

Today, dengan countless evidence that prove that men and women, although physically perfect creations of God, need and want each other to go though their fleeting time through time and space, only chauvinist pigs will keep on believing that men are indeed better than women. And vice versa.

Sometimes, it's a struggle to see that despite our shortcomings, men and women do complete each other, whether we like it or not. Yes, in extreme cases, we can exist and function without the other, but most of the time, we'd opt not to go through life that way. It's more meaningful to share life's experiences with our 'other half'. Well, that's why, the enlightened among us likes to call their partner their 'other half'; although we're complete on our own, having someone to be with us through thick and thin, just gives it all the more sense.

It's just a fun subject to debate about, but most of the time, I selalu kena remind myself that these people are just making conversation and what better way to fire up the airwaves than pitting us women and men against each other? It'll never fail to rile things up.